Poetry

I wish I was a poet. Lately all I want to do is write poems, but I can't do it. I just can't put my feelings and thoughts into poetry, it just doesn't come out right. I'm always too afraid to be bold with my words when I write poetry. I sit there and wonder, "Is it okay for me to phrase it like this? Is it weird for me to write this?" The thing is I don't even realize that I judge myself this way until I read other people's poetry, and I see the amazing creativity and beauty that goes into real poetry and I think, "Wow, why can't I write like that? Why didn't I think of that?" I like to write prose, but sometimes I think there's something immensely more powerful about poetry. Good poetry that is. Sometimes I think that if I force myself to sit down and try to write a poem, then maybe eventually I'll get better at it. But there's this other sad part of me that feels like I'll never be good at it. It just seems like one of those things that you have to have a talent for in the first place in order to have something to build on.

I'm still going to try though. Like I said, there's really nothing as powerful as a good poem, and I bet, nothing as satisfying as writing one. At least from my point of view. It would be fitting to end this with a poem, but I'm not going to. Why, after saying that I could not write a poem without significant effort would I then post some flimsy excuse for a poem? It's just hypocritical, and if I tried to write a poem on here, I'd be too worried about how dumb it would sound. Seriously, you know that no one is actually completely honest when they blog, because it's impossible to be completely honest in almost any circumstance, especially when you know someone's watching. Well, I'm being honest, and I'd feel stupid writing a poem on here just to write a poem. If I'm going to create a work of art, it has to be something I'm proud of, not a piece of garbage.

God, I need to delete this thing.